One of the biggest problems with ongoing resentment in a marriage is that it often leads to withdrawal and a lack of vulnerability. And if you’re bottling up feelings of anger, sadness, or disappointment, often this can lead to feelings of resentment. Along with this comes less warmth, affection, and over time less fondness and admiration for your partner. However, forgiveness can allow you to move on with your life and to embrace love, trust, and intimacy.
Karen, age 48, had been married to Kyle for five years when she found several letters from his former live-in girlfriend in his dresser drawer when she was putting away his clean clothes. She reflects, “I wasn’t looking for trouble but it presented itself to me and our marriage went sideways after that. I was so angry, jealous and fearful of Kyle leaving that I shut him out and wouldn’t listen to his side of the story.”
After visiting her sister in another state, Karen came to the realization that Kyle deserved a chance to explain his side of the story and she sat down with him over dinner at their favorite diner. When Kyle explained that Sarah, his ex was going through a bad divorce and wanted advice since he is a social worker, Karen apologized for overreacting, stopped feeling resentful, and forgave Kyle over time. However, it was important to her that he set firmer boundaries in his relationship with Sarah and discontinue writing letters or responding though email on a regular basis.
Trust is an essential element of any close relationship. If you lack trust than you beliefve that your partner no longer has your best interests at heart. In other words, you have stopped giving your spouse the benefit of the doubt and you have lost faith in his or her intentions. Honestly, you can’t love someone or be close to them emotionally if trust is destroyed.
If you’d like to rebuild trust in your partner, I would take an inventory and determine whether or not there have been other occasions when you’ve had reason to mistrust him or her. Ask yourself: Is it possible that he or she simply made an error in judgment by their mistrustful behaviors? Were their behaviors intentionally hurtful? Or, is it possible that your partner felt he or she couldn’t be completely open and honest with you because you’ve expressed jealousy in the past and he or she feared losing you?
Finally, do you believe it’s possible to rebuild trust and let go of resentment toward your partner? Are you willing to forgive him or her? Most experts believe that letting go of resentment toward someone is as much for the person who feels injured as the person who is causing the pain or breach of trust. These tips can help you let go of resentment if you decide to give your spouse a chance to regain your trust and forgive them.
If after considering the merits of letting go of resentment and forgiveness, you decide that your spouse is a keeper, you may find that your relationship moves to a deeper level of intimacy. As you learn to reveal your thoughts, feelings, and wishes in an open and honest way, you’ll be better prepared for the ups and downs of an intimate relationship.
In closing, adopt a mindset of a forgiving person if your partner has given you reason to believe that he or she is trustworthy. Try to remember you are on the same team. Practicing forgiveness signifies breaking the cycle of pain and giving up the belief that the other person should suffer as much as you do.
Let’s end on a powerful quote by Friedrick Nietzsche, "Nothing on earth consumes a man more quickly than the passion of resentment."